I have survived. And so will YOU.Β 

Here’s a #throwback to my return to the outside world after my first-ever panic attack postpartum.

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I’ve been talking to a couple of moms lately who are in the thick of their postpartum and are fighting hard. I’m so proud of them. ❀

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Their struggles have reminded me just how severe MY postpartum anxiety was and how far I’ve come.

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It’s been over 2 years since my first panic led me to call 911 and eventually get the help I needed to work through my anxiety, depression and intrusive thoughts.

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I’m so GRATEFUL to be over that part of my postpartum journey. Because in all honesty, I didn’t really think I was going to make it through.

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This picture is of our family at the Vancouver Christmas Market, about a month after my emergency hospital visit and a month into starting on my medication. 

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I remember being too afraid to leave the house that night (alone or otherwise), but I remember pushing myself to do it anyway. I also had the support and company of my mom-in-law and husband that night.

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I remember feeling so horrible about the awful thoughts swirling around in my head, but forcing a smile for this picture.

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I remember shaking while waiting in line for some cheesy noodles, not because it was cold outside, but because I was so afraid that my next panic attack would hit at that moment and I’d feel as helpless as the day I did when I was alone with a screaming two month old trying to get ready for her immunizations.

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Today is a different story, and a different feeling. ❀

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Today, even though I haven’t been 100% well, I left the house CONFIDENTLY with my two year old daughter, and our myriad of bags draped over our stroller. 😊

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Today, even when Narra started screaming in public (which I really panicked over), I remained cool as a cucumber and even smiled at how calm I was during the situation. πŸ™

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Today, instead of shaking with fear, I found myself laughing while my best friend and I watched Narra make jump after jump from the mall bench and into our arms. 😍

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It’s not always easy to look back, especially when looking back means reminding yourself of painful times. But sometimes looking back on the painful past can remind you just how STRONG you really are.

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I have survived 100% of my bad days so far.

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And so have you. 

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So WILL you. πŸ‘­

Failing Forward

Today was a really interesting day. I woke up LATE. And this was after making this huge, big speech to Eric about how I was “ready to start!!!” So much for that plan!

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But no worries because tomorrow is a new day and a new chance to begin again.πŸ’–

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Waking up late today was my first failure of the day. You might be thinking, “Okay, Corinne, failure is a BIT strong of a word to use!” But I use it with all the love and appreciation for the word.

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For those of you who don’t know, I’m a really intense perfectionist. I’m VERY detail oriented and sometimes, it eats me up inside. I can definitely say it had a tremendously negative impact on me during the deepest times of my postpartum anxiety and depression.

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Second failure of the day: Muffins in the Instant Pot that became Oat-puck-blobs

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It does also mean that I can be really hard on myself when I make mistakes. Which is why, for a long time, I just avoided mistakes at all costs. Can you imagine how anxious you would feel all the time if you couldn’t fail at anything?! You’d probably just give up once you started something and it didn’t go your way right away. Which is what I did for a long time.

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Then personal development (one of the vital behaviours of being a Coach) came into my life and everything shifted. All of a sudden, I was being exposed to quotes like this one:

Which told me failing wasn’t a big deal at all. It is simply a stepping stone to success.

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Slowly but surely, I started becoming more confident in my ability to fail with grace (something I never even knew was a thing) and confident in my strength to keep going despite my failures.

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Muffins in Instant Pot Round 2: A HUGE SUCCESS!!!

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I will be honest and upfront. Not all days are as easy to pick myself up again but I owe it all to my SUPPORT (family, friends and  Challengers who actually fall under both these categories).

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What I do know is that like all things, failing forward becomes easier the more you do it. 

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I intend on failing as much as possible. I have big dreams that can only be met by Failing Forward.

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What are your current “failures” that can be turned into stepping stones to success? Let me know!

Healthy Banana Oat Pancakes

What’s for dinner?.

At Hansen House, one of our dinner favourites is breakfast for dinner!

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I absolutely LOVE breakfast food but often it is full of starch and sugar. This recipe is SUGAR-FREE and GLUTEN-FREE and enjoyed by moms, dads and toddlers alike!

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Here is one of the YUMMIEST recipes from the  FIXATE cookbook:

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Healthy Banana Oat Pancakes


M for Mommy, D for Daddy, Olaf Pancake

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Serving Size: 2 pancakes

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Ingredients:

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* 1 cup unsweetened almond milk (or cashew milk)

* 2 eggs

* 1 very ripe banana (a chance for you to use your old banana)

* 1 tsp vanilla extract

* 1 tsp baking powder

* 1/2 tsp ground cinnamon

* 1 dash sea salt

* 2 cups old-fashioned rolled oats

* 1/2 tsp extra virgin organic coconut oil

* 3 cups fresh mixed berries

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Method:

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1. On low-medium heat, place frying pan on element and heat oil.

2. Combine all ingredients in blender except for coconut oil and berries into a blender. 

3. Cook 1/4 cup of batter at a time for 2-3 minutes on each side.

4. Serve and enjoy with berries!

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21 Day Fix: 1 πŸ’›, 1/2 πŸ’œ

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Need more help with meal planning and portion control? You won’t want to miss my next Self-Care Group! I’ll be here to guide you through the world of rainbow colour coded eating, 30 minute workouts, and be there to cheer you along the way!

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Email or add me on Facebook and message me for more details. Reserve your spot today!

21 Day Fix Chicken Fried Rice


Rice is great. Especially when you are hungry and want 2,000 of something πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‹πŸš.

21 Day Fix Approved Fried Rice!

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Makes 4 servings

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1.5 cups snap peas, sliced at an angle

1.5 cups cooked brown rice

2 cups chopped cooked chicken (we used rotisserie)

1/4 medium onion, sliced

2 tsp garlic ginger paste (homemade, or tsp each of garlic and ginger)

1 Tbsp coconut oil

1 Tbsp liquid aminos (or soy sauce)

1/2 tsp Chinese 5 Spice

Pepper to taste

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Method:

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1. Heat coconut oil in large skillet. Add onions and sautΓ© until translucent. Add garlic ginger paste and stir for 1 more minute.

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2. Add snap peas and sautΓ© for 3 mins, until they are tender but still have some crunch to them.

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3. Add chicken and brown rice in to pan. Mix until just combined.

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4. Season with liquid aminos, 5 spice and pepper.

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5. Serve and enjoy!

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One serving is 1 cup of fried rice. 

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21 Day Fix: 1 yellow, 1/2 green, 1/2 red